Support

It was so nice to have the kids home with me this Thanksgiving week. But sending them to school Monday I fell apart again. I feel like my life goal of being the best mom I can be has been taken from me.
I had this ideal of a stay at home mom, homeschooling, and making things with my hands.
What I didn't realize is I needed to have a support group. I didn't seek groups to help with with the huge job of raising kids.
Moms that stay home need outlets and support. If you are Homeschooling is so much more need to hear from others that are going through the challenges and faced everyday.
I'm grateful for my husband always encouraging me to seek help, but I never sustained the connection because of the work load, it is so easy to get too busy.

I think about writing often, adding a little, but I'm always stumped by what to say.
Most days are pretty much like the day before. Lots of mess and noise and complete chaos!
But when I get past the emotions of it all, I can list the positives of my job.
I gave up career, friends and body (lol) to be here every minute for my kids. Its always been so important to me that I need to be there for the kids. Watch them discover new things

You know, I have continued to struggle with sending my kids to school. I feel demoted from Vice President to mail clerk! My hubby thinks its an identity problem.
I've lost my primary job, or more truthful, gave it up. I have to continue to remind myself what reasons I send them to school and I need to focus on new goals.
.........to be cont.........kids are too noisey to think!!